[THERE WAS A TIME IN MY LIFE WHEN I THOUGHT SURVIVAL WAS LIFE.
I DID NOT KNOW THERE WAS A DIFFERENCE.
I WOKE UP THINKING ABOUT WHAT HAD TO BE FIXED.
I WENT TO SLEEP THINKING ABOUT WHAT I HAD FAILED TO FIX.
EVERY DAY FELT LIKE ANOTHER MOUNTAIN TO CLIMB.
EVERY RELATIONSHIP FELT LIKE SOMETHING I HAD TO HOLD TOGETHER.
EVERY DECISION FELT LIKE IT COULD DETERMINE WHETHER I MADE IT OR NOT.
I THOUGHT THIS WAS WHAT IT MEANT TO BE ALIVE.
I WAS WRONG.
NOT BECAUSE SURVIVAL WAS BAD.
SURVIVAL SAVED MY LIFE MORE THAN ONCE.
I HONOR THAT.
THERE ARE SEASONS WHEN SURVIVAL IS NECESSARY.
BUT THERE CAME A DAY WHEN I REALIZED SOMETHING THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING.
SURVIVAL COULD HELP ME STAY ALIVE.
IT COULD NOT TEACH ME HOW TO LIVE.
THAT DISCOVERY DID NOT COME ALL AT ONCE.
IT CAME ONE HONEST MOMENT AT A TIME.
EACH TIME I CHOSE TO STOP LYING TO MYSELF…
A LITTLE MORE OF THE WAR INSIDE OF ME ENDED.
EACH TIME I STOPPED BETRAYING WHAT I HONESTLY KNEW…
A LITTLE MORE PEACE ENTERED MY LIFE.
I USED TO THINK PEACE WAS SOMETHING I HAD TO REACH.
TODAY I KNOW IT IS SOMETHING I CAN LIVE FROM.
THAT HAS CHANGED EVERYTHING.
I NO LONGER BELIEVE MY PURPOSE IS TO TELL ANYONE HOW TO LIVE.
I DO NOT WANT TO TELL YOU WHAT TO BELIEVE.
I DO NOT WANT TO GIVE YOU A FORMULA.
I ONLY WANT TO STAND BESIDE YOU FOR A MOMENT.
IF YOU HAVE LIVED IN SURVIVAL FOR A LONG TIME…
YOU MAY BELIEVE THAT SURVIVAL IS THE ONLY WAY TO EXIST.
I BELIEVED THAT TOO.
UNTIL HONESTY SHOWED ME SOMETHING DIFFERENT.
HONESTY DID NOT DESTROY ME.
IT RETURNED ME TO MYSELF.
THE JOURNEY WAS PAINFUL.
LETTING GO OF WHAT I THOUGHT WAS MY IDENTITY WAS NOT EASY.
THERE WERE DAYS I THOUGHT I WAS LOSING MYSELF.
LOOKING BACK…
I WAS NOT LOSING MYSELF.
I WAS LOSING THE PROGRAMMING THAT TAUGHT ME WHO I THOUGHT I HAD TO BE.
BENEATH ALL OF THAT…
PEACE HAD BEEN WAITING.
LOVE HAD BEEN WAITING.
HOME HAD BEEN WAITING.
IF YOU ARE READING THESE WORDS…
PLEASE HEAR MY HEART.
I AM NOT WRITING TO TELL YOU THAT YOUR JOURNEY WILL BE EASY.
I AM NOT WRITING TO TELL YOU HOW FAST YOU SHOULD CHANGE.
I AM NOT WRITING TO TELL YOU WHAT YOUR LIFE SHOULD LOOK LIKE.
I AM WRITING TO TELL YOU SOMETHING MUCH SIMPLER.
SURVIVAL IS NOT YOUR ONLY WAY TO LIVE.
THERE IS ANOTHER WAY.
I KNOW…
BECAUSE I HAD TO DISCOVER IT MYSELF.
AND IF THESE WORDS CAN STAND BESIDE YOU DURING YOUR OWN DARK HOURS OF DISCOVERY…
THEN THEY HAVE ALREADY FULFILLED THEIR PURPOSE.
NOT BECAUSE THEY GAVE YOU MY LIFE.
BUT BECAUSE THEY QUIETLY REMINDED YOU…
THAT YOU STILL HAVE YOUR OWN.]
FOR THE HONOR OF YOUR SOUL’S-EVOLUTION IS WITH THE BLESSING BY THE POSTMASTER.
: LOVE HAS NO CONDITIONS.
: FACTS HAVE NO FEELINGS.
: HUMILITY HAS NO EGO.
: ANCHOR.
: PILLAR.
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